It’s been a long time since I’ve written here, and much has changed since last we spoke. This past year brought with it profound change in my life and a renewed appreciation of it. Love manifested itself abundantly in the people, places, and events that I found along my journey, and the path continues to stretch gently into a sunny horizon. Fear, while ever present, has been muted by the joy and peace that binds my spirit to this world. I am loved. I am fearless. I am peace. I am me. I am now.
If necessity is the mother of invention, then trauma is its uncle. I’ve had my share of fuck-ups and suffering, albeit minor compared to those of many people. By an indescribable (and perhaps irrational) sense of faith and courage, I’ve walked away from the burning wreckage as peaceful and optimistic as ever. Ironically, the last time I passed through this state, I fell into the very trauma that brought me to this point in my life. Serious Yin Yang there.
Through all of my successes and failures, I’ve learned that the past and present do not define me; they are simply phases, facets, extensions of much more profound beings: me and now. Truth is only found in the moment in which I exist, nothing else - not my thoughts, ego, the judgment of others, the fears of the future, the regrets of the past.
Sometimes we need to die to ourselves to truly KNOW why we are sacred parts of an even greater whole. We need no justification or purpose other than the joy and peace of our own existence. Our egos tell us that we’re incomplete, but what more do we need other than to be? We’ve been blessed with bodies, minds, and spirits that give us the capacity for love, joy, and peace. If used properly, we can manifest unfathomable beauty in our lives and each others’.
God is the state of being that we collectively achieve if we act for the purpose of fulfilling each other’s innate potential for love, beauty, and creation.